Lately I've been finding myself going into Cole's room at night before I go to bed. I used to just check on him, make sure he didn't need a diaper change or putting an extra blanket on him if his room was cold, but for the past few weeks I've been pulling him out of his crib, still asleep, and rocking him in the glider. I do this for almost an hour or until Bryan comes in and tells me to leave Cole alone :) And I usually cry. Not because I'm sad, but because my baby is growing up, and I don't want him to. He's almost too big to snuggle in my lap and he is talking, walking, and doing, well, toddler things. Not baby things. I think this is why I wanted another baby when Bryce was only nine months old (and I got pregnant and then miscarried when Rix was about nine months). I don't like my babies to grow up, so I have more to fill that void. I even broke down in hysterical sobs when I had to put away Cole's 3 month sized clothes because he no longer fit them. I am very excited for my kids to grow up and experience new things. I want to take them to Disneyland and we are signing Rix up for T-ball this spring. But at the same time, growing up means eventually they will move out, and that will be hard for me. So I'm taking this time to really enjoy my babies while I can, even if that means disrupting Cole's sleep so I can snuggle just a little longer with him. If only we lived in Never Never Land, then they would never grow up, and I wouldn't have to cry every time they get older on me.
Monday, February 9, 2009
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I know exactly how you feel. They grow up way too fast and it's bittersweet. Hey, when you go to Disneyland we'll come with you. How much fun would that be!!!
I've been feeling so sad about how fast Tyce is growing up and it's only been a week. And, it makes me realize how big all my kids are. I love talking to them on the phone because that's when I hear their tiny voices and realize how small they really are. Time goes by way too fast! I'm glad you're savoring every experience!
Don't forget about the Lone Ranger out here in California when you come to play at Disneyland!
I used to do that with Hayden, especially just before Roman was born because I realized just how fast time was moving. Carissa's right, it's bittersweet. But I love watching them learn new things.
Oh Celeste. I am so sorry!! I wish i could be a magic fairy and make them babies again so you could just start over as many times as you want!
Are you kidding me, you're already worried about them moving out and Rix hasn't even started T-Ball yet, a little rediculous if you ask me celeste... ha ha
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